Dependence

Learning to depend on others, for me is something I need to learn and become accustomed to.  It seems that it has often been me that is there to help others out but now the shoe is on the other foot, so to speak.  For those who read my blog regularly, you will know that last week, I had a bit of a hiccup in my health (See entry for September - 'Change of Plans')  I am pleased to say that the medication that the specialist has prescribed for me is having the desired effect and I am now feeling much better.  But some things that I always managed to do need to change.  I need to simplify my life!  


One thing I always enjoyed was working in the garden although lately I admit that the length of time I could do this was gradually getting less and less - I just seemed to run out of energy.  So now, my offspring have told me NOT to do it any more but to get someone in to help.  I must confess that I don't always do as they ask but this time I did and so yesterday it was arranged.  Here in the southwest, it is still mild and the garden still needs some attention before the winter sets in.  So we have arranged a couple of visits to tidy it all up before the cold weather and to resume again in March.

Then yesterday, my computer rebelled!  I was checking someone's blog when suddenly it became a screen full of vertical lines and after a few seconds switched off.  I unplugged everything and plugged it all back in again and the same thing happened.  I tried again this morning only to find that the computer hadn't had a change of heart - it just didn't want to do anything!  Fortunately my son who shares the house with me has a new computer and so for the time being I am able to access my account on his.  Phew!  Now I am dependent on him for access to his room when he is out so I can use his computer and keep up to date with everything and everybody.

We (at least I) can become so used to things the way they are that we don't always realise just how much we depend on things continuing in the same way until suddenly life pulls us up with a jerk and makes us reassess the way things are done and seek an alternative even if it is only temporarily ... ... ... and never to take anyone, any thing or any circumstance for granted.